This is not unusual for me to not update my blog until almost a year hehe. Today, I promised myself to at least write here once a year on every October 10th as a remembrance of Doctors' Day. Yay, HAPPY DOCTORS' DAY to all doctors who are working hard to ensure the best service/ treatment is provided to all patients.
This year, there was two upsetting incidents happened exactly 3 months ago when I was oncall - I lost a bracelet given by my parents and I 'quarreled' with my boss in our whatsapp group. Just a heads up peeps, if I am oncall or postcall especially when I'm busy or hungry, I hope no one make me get on my nerve or I'll definitely bomb anyone who trigger the switch of my patience, no matter who you are. Yup, I'm so insane when I'm 'hangry'.
I like to wear the bracelet as it feels like my mom is accompanying me anywhere I go. However, my oncall that day was kinda busy - I had to insert central catheter line to the ill patient before I intubate the patient, so I removed my bracelet to do the procedure in aseptic technique. I totally forgot about the bracelet until the day after my postcall day. As I, in the meantime, also felt guilty for talked back to my boss in whatsapp (I didn't swear, I just answered his question truthfully which I think I should just leave it unanswered), I felt very overwhelmed to even live! Those incidents really affected me so much that time. That bracelet is very very very precious not merely because it is expensive but it was given by my beloved parents. Because I like to escape whenever I'm depressed, I went for an impromptu roadtrip to Sarikei. A long drive is one of my way to make myself feels better. I drove really fast on the curvy and bumpy roads to Sarikei from Samarahan, not caring about my life at all since I felt very dejected. I had near-missed accidents twice during that journey but since my car equipped with good safety features, nothing really happened except the loud scream of the car brakes and automatic emergency lights turned on. I was very insane, right? >.<
Few weeks later, I found the bracelet on the floor in the oncall room after a cleaner did an extensive floor cleaning in the room that day. It was a real miracle for me and I am too grateful to Allah for that alhamdulillah. As for my boss who blocked me on whatsapp, phone call and phone message which I think is unnecessary, I initially felt so miserable about that. On my second thought, this should not affect me so much as I usually only use hospital phone to call any of my boss and I don't really text them. Nevertheless, there was still unsatisfied weird forlorn feelings inside me as I think this 'bad blood' thing is something so stupid I have to handle. Who wouldn't feel miserable if someone who used to talk a lot with you suddenly don't even want to say your name or see your face, right? Therefore, I decided to escape again but this time to South Korea.
The trip taught me many life lessons. I met many people who are unhappy albeit rich. I just came back from Korea and I am now feeling so rejuvenated. I do not feel anything anymore about being block or if anyone hate me and I can even tell people (you all) about this which means I am already okay! I never talk openly about anything that disrupts my inner peace. I finally found peace inside me and all praise to Allah who planned everything so perfectly. Alhamdulillah.
Oh by the way, another miracle is that I am transferring back to work in Perak next month! How amazing my life nowadays right? There are many miracles happening (some I did not say here) so I have nothing to complain (except for the slow celcom internet). My current plan is to enjoy my final month in Sarawak to the fullest, appreciate those who still love me and still want to talk to me while preparing to leave for good.
Do you wanna be my babe? ^^
Thank you for reading my yearly life update bhahahahaha. I hope Allah ease everything on your side and we always feel at peace. Be happy alwayyyys~~~!
